It's been more than two years since I've written in this place, disappointing isnt it?
What happened to the drawings? Maybe being a devoted scientist doesn't allow you the time to day dream and ponder upon the ideas of new drawings. In fact, I often had ideas, inspirations and even motivations, yet only rough sketches were scribbled down on scrap paper, and then disappeared amongst a pile of more scrap paper...
Argh, this has nothing to do with the topic of this journal... I suppose to rave about the stress and hard work of last year uni, and that my unmotivated mind prevents me from completing any work! >.< It's funny, cos your stressed, yet your not stressed enough to do work. or too stressed that you give up on working, of which I'm not so sure.
2 more months and I'm done, with the undergrad degree but not with uni... At least it's some sort of accomplishment, and hopefully some sort of major break will follow. I want to draw more, it's a part of me that I've been neglecting, so there is some sort of sadness. My dreams are black and white, so are my drawings and my life... How can I put colours in them when I don't have the technique to do so? And learning can be a tedious task at such times. =_=
Why am I so lazy?! Was I born lazy, is it in my genes? It could be an interesting research topic: Hypoactivity in humans. XD
I had a dream, a dream of myself sitting on a cliff facing the ocean as the summer freeze gently brushed again my cheeks. The smell of sea salts, the calmness of the sea, the warmth of the sun, in an image I can never forget. And hope that one day, it will be hanging on my wall...